"Have you seen my servant Job?"

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Stillness


I finally thought of something that I want to do, but so late that my resources have mostly been squandered doing other ridiculous things. We'll see how it transpires. In the meantime I have some great computers that I can sell. What am I bid for the Pentium 3 1000? And for the 650 AMD with Windows 98? Anyone...?

Not such a great business model. If there was an effective way of marketing my actual skills that didn't include people wanting to know about my time in prison it would be much nicer for me. I don't really think prison has a whole lot of relevance anymore. That was about ten years ago..... wow. Time flies when you are having such great fun.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Wind

tree
All my recent complaining has led me to consider something that has been right under my nose for a while. Now I just need facts to make my plans. I don't want to talk too much about specifics until I can figure for sure whether my current dream is my path, but it sure does make me feel a whole lot better.

Today my friend and I went to a park with a pioneer cemetery nearby. We got there a half hour before the park closed and I ran around like a freak trying to find the place, but it was a nice outing nonetheless. I took this picture there. Interesting tree. Colored by the blood of the coal miners who died?

Monday, March 13, 2006

Doldrums



So why so little change? Where is my inspiration? Where's the cream filling as it were?

I don't know what the deal is these days. Tomorrow brings little promise. This is like being becalmed in the way of the oceanic explorers of old. Sailing the seas of fate with no wind. Yes I have a frame of reference, but things are not much better than the worst days of my life, it is just a different quality to the bad things. Certainly not much better. There is more good than stinky though. Just a lot of not-shiny spots. Indistinct color in the overall scene.

Still here. Saving my words for that thing that might be worth talking about.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Under the Stairs...


Today I helped Mary Day clean some containers full of different glazes that she has stored underneath the stairs leading to the front door of her house. It wasn't too difficult. This was after I had reconfigured her email setting so she could send again. Turmoil caused by the big migration from Earthlink to att. It was somewhat interesting to see the different things, like barium, that are used for glazing pottery. Looks very healthy. Found a small creature that appears to be a salamander. It was under the stairs. Thought I had killed it, but apparently it was playing possum. I'd have been bummed if I'd killed it.

The company is nice, the work is okay, but let me not be distracted for too long from the fact that I am in a job crises and sending out resumes is for me almost as futile it seems as throwing a snowball into the infernal region. If I have to type a different cover letter for every place telling them how special I am for their particular job, it makes it harder to blanket as wide a number of employeers in as short a time. Cover letters are the icing on the snowballs that I throw into the infernal region.

It has been quite some time since I started out on my college journey. Will I ever have a career path? Heavens.

Here is the non-dead salamander.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Bloody Thursday


Today was interesting. At the barn the cowboy was moving the herd that has been grazing on the EBMUD land adjacent. A horse in a paddock of the neighboring vintner became excited and tangled itself in a barbed wire fence. The UPS guy alerted the cowboy and then me. I grabbed a coworker and we headed over to find the cowboy keeping the horse still. UPS and I held the head while cowboy cut the fence. Once we rolled the horse and got him standing I walked him to a round pen in a drier area of the property just a few dozen yards away. That's when the arterial bleeding became apparent.

It's a strange thing; blood. If it is coming out at the right pressure it looks like a solid object and a thin geyser of the stuff is hard to differentiate from another natural object like a stick or piece of grass. A red stick. That's when the brain refocuses and says: "something isn't right here." Thankfully, horses have a lot more blood than humans do. In all my years I think this was the first time I dressed an arterial wound, and in the field no less. I asked my coworker , Brian, for a rag but he couldn't find one in the horse's owners tack trunk. I asked him to keep looking and suddenly he hands me a piece of a sock. The dude tore off his own sock! Awesome. So it worked out quite well, because I was able to fit the sock over the hoof. With the help of Brian's other sock we had ourselves a nicely improvised elastic field dressing. Reduced the arterial flow to almost nil. I waited for the owner and helped her trailer the poor critter. He seemed in good enough spirits. For a guy with two dirty,bloody socks tied around his ankle he was doing pretty well.

A mini-diatribe on the ills of rotational grazing by the cowboy, and one run-into-the-street-suicide-attempting dogs later I was in Berkeley at my class. Then I noticed that I hadn't *quite* washed all the blood from my hands. Never mind those boots of mine. Filthy.